I'm a joke.

On this fateful day everyone decides that it is a day for all their jokes and pranks and "just for laughs" gags, but they are mostly disturbing, if I have to say.

So pomelo and jiejie decided to pull one off on me, the latter getting all emotional and trying to convince me that she in fact has some feelings for the former. Well I was all ears and interested but once I start a movie I gotta finish it, so I continued watching it before I got to them. I'm sorry if that made me seem like an uncaring jerk/bastard but well, the show goes on - and there's no stopping haha xD

Anyways... I'm not going to go into detail about the prank, but I do appreciate the effort to put it together - as an entertainment, some random fun, impromptu joke - whatever it is. In fact, I should say thank you to the both of you, for making the day start so refreshingly disturbing, awkward mostly. No, seriously.

On a happier note, I got my PDL today! (last morning, technically) Which means, I am all set and ready to take my driving lessons which I will aim to complete very very quickly so that I can make myself feel more aldult-ish haha! And I came to a conclusion that it's things like these, small but potentially long-lasting, that makes me happy in spite of all the confusing negativity swirling in my head. I'm not happy, really. I have no particular reason to be, but finding tiny little pockets of joy has been my achievement these few weeks. I don't know why I'm not happy or generally distasteful of my environment. Maybe it's because I haven't found someone special in my life yet, which could really be the greatest reason, I believe. So please - I'm not gonna tell my kids in the future how I met their mother, and therefore you do not need to bring me through this thick shroud of smoke and confusion just to show me who "the one" is. Yea and if you're gonna do that, make sure everyone counts. I mean, leave an impression, because I don't want them to be just a passer-by in my life. Got it? Thank you, whoever is listening :)

And at this extremely unearthly hour, I am wide awake and brimming with zest. I am seriously messing around with my biological clock. I wonder if this is what happens in Uni o.O btw it's 2.55 a.m. now.

I posted this on my Fb status on Friday: Is this the season for leaving and goodbyes?
I have two reasons for saying so, one being the people around me who are leaving my life as time and distance continues to separate us, and the other being that I commiserate with those who have lost someone special in their life recently. It is so unnerving to know that life is so brittle and fragile. I've written a little piece that expresses my feelings, more or less.

Never thought life could be so ephemeral;

We’re short-lived in nature, at life’s disposal.

Every day I pray I outlive the world,

trying to go unnoticed, with my tread so subtle.

But in the end, who am I to say,

who should go, or who should stay?

Life is exciting because of uncertainty. The fact that it's unpredictable is probably the reason why many do not dare to venture. I gotta try something new before life bores me out. And it's definitely nights like these that you need some booze to treat everything as a joke. Let my unsound mind determine the truth of your claim. And I'm not even talking about your prank, you two. I'm talking about your reply.