It's officially New Year's Eve. I can't even remember what I was doing on this day last year. Was I doing something meaningful? Was I sleeping at home for some unknown reason? Was I out celebrating with someone else or was I alone? Seems like last year's New Year's Eve was so insignificant that I couldn't remember a thing about it.
This year I'm spending it with some of my closest friends. I don't know whether it'll be memorable but I hope next year at this point of time I'll still have some inkling about what happened today.
Somehow it felt as if the last few days of the year passed by very slowly... Maybe it's because I wasn't on leave as planned, or maybe it's just because it's a lull period for everyone. Whatever it is, now is the time. We're here.
Speaking of leave, I finally got to take yesterday off to take a relaxing walk in town. I've been doing it for a few times now already. It kinda takes my mind off to somewhere else when I walk long distances like these. And today I discovered a new chillax spot - the area outside NLB. I sat on the stairs there with the wind blowing and music plugged in and it was better than sitting in the library, because with all that air-con going around me I could fall asleep anytime -.- trust me, been there done that.
I've already done my resolutions and aspirations for 2012 awhile back, and looking at them, I think they are very achievable. Here's toasting to a brand new year full of surprises and accomplishments!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Friday, December 30, 2011
Do you ever feel...
Like a plastic bag drifting through the wind?
No I don't. I do, however, feel like punching those who liked my facebook status that I posted awhile ago... Seriously, I posted "i'd say f____ you but that'll be too kind", and people actually liked that status. THEY LIKED IT. I was trying to relieve some angst but instead of saying things like "chill bro" or expressing some concern, THEY ACTUALLY LIKED MY STATUS. What were you thinking huh?
I'm just in a very enraged state and suddenly feel very frustrated with strong urges to clench, tear, and suffocate. Best part, I don't even know why. Maybe there's a reason. Maybe, but I haven't found out what it is. Yet.
Just letting off some steam. Took a chill pill.
No I don't. I do, however, feel like punching those who liked my facebook status that I posted awhile ago... Seriously, I posted "i'd say f____ you but that'll be too kind", and people actually liked that status. THEY LIKED IT. I was trying to relieve some angst but instead of saying things like "chill bro" or expressing some concern, THEY ACTUALLY LIKED MY STATUS. What were you thinking huh?
I'm just in a very enraged state and suddenly feel very frustrated with strong urges to clench, tear, and suffocate. Best part, I don't even know why. Maybe there's a reason. Maybe, but I haven't found out what it is. Yet.
Just letting off some steam. Took a chill pill.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
F.R.I.E.N.D.S - no, not the tv series
I got this off the internet:
friend
n. - a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
Indispensable and so fundamental is the existence of friends that we sometimes forget why they are such big parts of our lives. I'm not talking about that ridiculous 3 or 4 digit number you have there on Facebook. No, that's not it. You can easily conclude that more than 3/4 of them are merely acquaintances, if not just barely chat buddies. I'm talking about the people who are in your lives, not just on your computer screen. People you actually hang out with, text each other, feel comfortable being around etc.
We all have close friends, very close ones in fact. Guy buddies you can do almost anything with, girl friends whom you can talk to just about anything. And I suddenly realise, these are the people who I never wanna let go of. They are so important to me that if one day they decide to ignore me, I'll go begging for their attention and stuff (haha not so drama). Alrite, I'm serious. I will.
I'm glad to have these people in my life. My class, especially - bunch of crazy people who do nothing less than crazy stuff, talk nothing less than crazy talk, and love each other nothing less than crazy love. I know that even in such a small community of people i'll still have even closer friends, friends who you know will be there your entire life. Right from the start of my JC life I met pomelo and joanne jie jie and I never felt apart from them for even one day. It's like this spiritual bond. Pomelo, I'm really glad I knew you. Fun-loving crazie guy, always hanging out with me 'cause I have no one else to hang out with in JC -.- and joanne, being so bearing with all our nonsense and other idiotic stuff, (trying to be) nice and caring. I have no idea why we hung out together, because I'm just a random 'O' levels guy who didn't seem to fit into that gigantic family of people. They could have let me be a loner, but they chose to save me from that and bring me so much happiness I can ever ask for. The support and the joy was enough to keep me through those 2 yrs. And after that 2 yrs, they continued to shower me with so much love I could drown (ha sounds so mushy but yea). Sometimes I wonder what I've done to deserve such loving friends.
Ten years down the road, who knows, pomelo, if I get married you'll be top on my bridegroom list. If you guys ever read this you'll know how much I treasure you guys.
Friends forever.
friend
n. - a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
Indispensable and so fundamental is the existence of friends that we sometimes forget why they are such big parts of our lives. I'm not talking about that ridiculous 3 or 4 digit number you have there on Facebook. No, that's not it. You can easily conclude that more than 3/4 of them are merely acquaintances, if not just barely chat buddies. I'm talking about the people who are in your lives, not just on your computer screen. People you actually hang out with, text each other, feel comfortable being around etc.
We all have close friends, very close ones in fact. Guy buddies you can do almost anything with, girl friends whom you can talk to just about anything. And I suddenly realise, these are the people who I never wanna let go of. They are so important to me that if one day they decide to ignore me, I'll go begging for their attention and stuff (haha not so drama). Alrite, I'm serious. I will.
I'm glad to have these people in my life. My class, especially - bunch of crazy people who do nothing less than crazy stuff, talk nothing less than crazy talk, and love each other nothing less than crazy love. I know that even in such a small community of people i'll still have even closer friends, friends who you know will be there your entire life. Right from the start of my JC life I met pomelo and joanne jie jie and I never felt apart from them for even one day. It's like this spiritual bond. Pomelo, I'm really glad I knew you. Fun-loving crazie guy, always hanging out with me 'cause I have no one else to hang out with in JC -.- and joanne, being so bearing with all our nonsense and other idiotic stuff, (trying to be) nice and caring. I have no idea why we hung out together, because I'm just a random 'O' levels guy who didn't seem to fit into that gigantic family of people. They could have let me be a loner, but they chose to save me from that and bring me so much happiness I can ever ask for. The support and the joy was enough to keep me through those 2 yrs. And after that 2 yrs, they continued to shower me with so much love I could drown (ha sounds so mushy but yea). Sometimes I wonder what I've done to deserve such loving friends.
Ten years down the road, who knows, pomelo, if I get married you'll be top on my bridegroom list. If you guys ever read this you'll know how much I treasure you guys.
Friends forever.
Monday, December 26, 2011
nerfed.
After feeling slightly awake now, (I still feel damn knocked-out currently) I've decided to do some musing, deliberation, AAR, whatever you wanna call it.
So, I was talking about what I got for Christmas - a capo. And then there was liqin who got a nerf gun. How cool is that? It set me thinking a little - do I want a capo or a nerf gun? A capo was what I always wanted - practical, useful and hey, it helps achieve one of my NY resolution so I guess that's another bonus. But a nerf gun, however, seemed less relevant. It's probably a one-off toy, disposable - dispensable even. It serves nothing more important than just its basic function of being a fun thing to plae with. And when I get bored of it, I'll probably move on and get new toys. But they had so much fun plaeing with it! It was like this ultra fun gadget that everyone wanted to try. It set me wondering, would I be better off with a capo or a nerf gun? What makes me happy?
The capo represents studies - so practical yet so uninviting. I'm not advocating that studying is bad or anything; in fact, it's actually really good. It's just that most of us find that studies never really gave us a break. Think about it - what was the longest period you didn't have an exam? (Haha insert 2yrs here) In retrospect, the nerf gun - it symbolises freedom, fun and joy, associated with something less serious and more enjoyable. Ah, the holidays. Don't we all enjoy them? Carefree, weightless, a well deserved hiatus from the lest hectic schedule in school. But ultimately, the more sensible option would be the capo. We should always go for the things in life that can carry us a long, long way, instead of looking in a short-term perspective at things that may bring us a brief and temporary moment of joy. Shouldn't we?
At the end of the day, I think most people would be sensible enough to realise what is permanent and what is temporary, know what is priority and what is secondary, understand what is genuine and what is an illusion.
I would choose the capo over the nerf gun any day, no doubt, but I won't reject a nerf gun for Christmas once in awhile ;)
So, I was talking about what I got for Christmas - a capo. And then there was liqin who got a nerf gun. How cool is that? It set me thinking a little - do I want a capo or a nerf gun? A capo was what I always wanted - practical, useful and hey, it helps achieve one of my NY resolution so I guess that's another bonus. But a nerf gun, however, seemed less relevant. It's probably a one-off toy, disposable - dispensable even. It serves nothing more important than just its basic function of being a fun thing to plae with. And when I get bored of it, I'll probably move on and get new toys. But they had so much fun plaeing with it! It was like this ultra fun gadget that everyone wanted to try. It set me wondering, would I be better off with a capo or a nerf gun? What makes me happy?
The capo represents studies - so practical yet so uninviting. I'm not advocating that studying is bad or anything; in fact, it's actually really good. It's just that most of us find that studies never really gave us a break. Think about it - what was the longest period you didn't have an exam? (Haha insert 2yrs here) In retrospect, the nerf gun - it symbolises freedom, fun and joy, associated with something less serious and more enjoyable. Ah, the holidays. Don't we all enjoy them? Carefree, weightless, a well deserved hiatus from the lest hectic schedule in school. But ultimately, the more sensible option would be the capo. We should always go for the things in life that can carry us a long, long way, instead of looking in a short-term perspective at things that may bring us a brief and temporary moment of joy. Shouldn't we?
At the end of the day, I think most people would be sensible enough to realise what is permanent and what is temporary, know what is priority and what is secondary, understand what is genuine and what is an illusion.
I would choose the capo over the nerf gun any day, no doubt, but I won't reject a nerf gun for Christmas once in awhile ;)
Sunday, December 25, 2011
CHRISTMAS PARTAY!!!
Harlo I'm back from the awesome CHRISTMAS PARTAY!!! yesterday :)
Haha alrite actually it's not the go-crazy-cant-remember-what-happened-yesterday kind of party but yea it's a mini one with our class people - food and the inevitable mahjong -.- and oh yea, partly to send ivan off as well (ivan <-- i'd better get something from you from europe or else...)
I really wanna thank joanne jie jie specially for providing her place for the cooking and celebration, and also jing jie who went with her to shop for Christmas presents for the whole bunch of us!
Speaking of which, guess what i got for Christmas! - A CAPO FOR MY GUITAR!! Awesome stuff, and I dare say I have been wanting to get one for god knows how long! So thanksssss joanne and jj :D Not to forget, our dear zheng hao got us gifts as well and I got a coffee cup from him :)
I am damn tired now after an entire night of mahjong. I DID NOT SLEEP. I just did, 4 hours ago and I'm gonna go back for more. Till next time, bro!
Haha alrite actually it's not the go-crazy-cant-remember-what-happened-yesterday kind of party but yea it's a mini one with our class people - food and the inevitable mahjong -.- and oh yea, partly to send ivan off as well (ivan <-- i'd better get something from you from europe or else...)
I really wanna thank joanne jie jie specially for providing her place for the cooking and celebration, and also jing jie who went with her to shop for Christmas presents for the whole bunch of us!
Speaking of which, guess what i got for Christmas! - A CAPO FOR MY GUITAR!! Awesome stuff, and I dare say I have been wanting to get one for god knows how long! So thanksssss joanne and jj :D Not to forget, our dear zheng hao got us gifts as well and I got a coffee cup from him :)
I am damn tired now after an entire night of mahjong. I DID NOT SLEEP. I just did, 4 hours ago and I'm gonna go back for more. Till next time, bro!
Friday, December 23, 2011
New Year's Resolution
Every single year I've been telling myself that I will start a blog. Haha I guess this is the year that I actually make it happen... partly because 2012 MIGHT be the last year ever -.-
I was intending to hold this till new year but sheesh i guess it doesn't hurt to start a little earlier, so that Santa might see my wishes and send me a wonderful Christmas gift x)
So... for the coming year, I have these few resolutions in mind:
1) To start a blog (yay)
2) To discover my superpower
3) To learn driving and drive my dad's car around =D
4) To learn to plae the guitar like a pro
5) To know that i have made the right decisions for my next few years of life
The list is not exhaustive but let's just keep it as such for now.
1) Yep. Here it is. I think it's high time I started this 'cause I realised that throughout this year (2011) I've had many rough times (some good ones though) and at a lot of times I did feel like penning down my thoughts but I have always written it down somewhere and then forget where I put it... believe me I have so many things on my mind to offload that I can't begin to imagine where I chucked all those past random memories haha. So here, this shall be my memory bank :)
2) Hmm I remember zhai told me to find my own superpower awhile back... Come to think of it, isn't it something that most of us are searching nowadays? Something special and extraordinary about yourself, something special that only you might be able to do, something that could potentially make you a stronger, tougher, and powerful person? I'm not saying that it has to be exactly like those you see in the cartoons (although I secretly hope for the power of telekinesis so I can read other people's mind haha), but maybe just some simple day-to-day superpower, like being able to finish reading a long book in a day, or being able to remember handphone numbers for good even when you've only seen them for the first time. I look forward to finding mine the following year :) For now, I shall remain a superhero apprentice.
3) Omg I really am a procrastinator. I have been telling myself to sign up for driving lessons since god knows when but I still haven't done it yet... I need this desparately. Driving seems cool. Driving is for grown-ups. I remember how much I wanted to do this since I was young, but a small part of me now regrets this. Because I don't wanna grow up so quickly. It's all happening too fast and I'm stuck in NS. Boo.
4) Music is such a great part of my life that I never want to lose it. Deep down everyone has a secret desire to sing freely, to sing like those we see on TV who get many many rounds of applause. One can only dream.
5) Now I know this sounds incredibly serious but it's actually mostly about what I'm gonna do from now till I ORD, and also my uni education, and my performance in uni, and (hopefully) a girlfriend, and... you get my drift. The life decisions. For the next 4 years. I won't start on those decisions that I won't have to make THAT soon (ha I remember telling danny that 27 is a good age to get married lol), but I need to sort out how I'm gonna lead my life the next few years, and how I'm gonna squeeze the very last bit of young juicy pulp out of myself till I turn into a wrinkled exhausted sunkist orange left to the mercy of life's wretched hands. Do something crazy and fun, while I still have some youth and vigour in me. If not wait till when?
So there, my very first entry for a brand new year ahead.
May I have the courage to withstand what entails.
I was intending to hold this till new year but sheesh i guess it doesn't hurt to start a little earlier, so that Santa might see my wishes and send me a wonderful Christmas gift x)
So... for the coming year, I have these few resolutions in mind:
1) To start a blog (yay)
2) To discover my superpower
3) To learn driving and drive my dad's car around =D
4) To learn to plae the guitar like a pro
5) To know that i have made the right decisions for my next few years of life
The list is not exhaustive but let's just keep it as such for now.
1) Yep. Here it is. I think it's high time I started this 'cause I realised that throughout this year (2011) I've had many rough times (some good ones though) and at a lot of times I did feel like penning down my thoughts but I have always written it down somewhere and then forget where I put it... believe me I have so many things on my mind to offload that I can't begin to imagine where I chucked all those past random memories haha. So here, this shall be my memory bank :)
2) Hmm I remember zhai told me to find my own superpower awhile back... Come to think of it, isn't it something that most of us are searching nowadays? Something special and extraordinary about yourself, something special that only you might be able to do, something that could potentially make you a stronger, tougher, and powerful person? I'm not saying that it has to be exactly like those you see in the cartoons (although I secretly hope for the power of telekinesis so I can read other people's mind haha), but maybe just some simple day-to-day superpower, like being able to finish reading a long book in a day, or being able to remember handphone numbers for good even when you've only seen them for the first time. I look forward to finding mine the following year :) For now, I shall remain a superhero apprentice.
3) Omg I really am a procrastinator. I have been telling myself to sign up for driving lessons since god knows when but I still haven't done it yet... I need this desparately. Driving seems cool. Driving is for grown-ups. I remember how much I wanted to do this since I was young, but a small part of me now regrets this. Because I don't wanna grow up so quickly. It's all happening too fast and I'm stuck in NS. Boo.
4) Music is such a great part of my life that I never want to lose it. Deep down everyone has a secret desire to sing freely, to sing like those we see on TV who get many many rounds of applause. One can only dream.
5) Now I know this sounds incredibly serious but it's actually mostly about what I'm gonna do from now till I ORD, and also my uni education, and my performance in uni, and (hopefully) a girlfriend, and... you get my drift. The life decisions. For the next 4 years. I won't start on those decisions that I won't have to make THAT soon (ha I remember telling danny that 27 is a good age to get married lol), but I need to sort out how I'm gonna lead my life the next few years, and how I'm gonna squeeze the very last bit of young juicy pulp out of myself till I turn into a wrinkled exhausted sunkist orange left to the mercy of life's wretched hands. Do something crazy and fun, while I still have some youth and vigour in me. If not wait till when?
So there, my very first entry for a brand new year ahead.
May I have the courage to withstand what entails.
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