Get It Right

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
How many times will it take to get it right?

As succinct as the lyrics of this original Glee song puts it, I seem to be feeling a little below expectations lately. It was never my intention to try and create work for everybody, but I still need to put across this message: Doing things the wrong way long enough doesn't mean you're doing it right. In fact, it makes you more narcissistic than you should've been, boasting and advocating the wrong ideas meanwhile. I know it's hard to admit our mistakes sometimes, but we just gotta do it - unless you treasure your pride more than your friends.

I was chatting with clement today on my way home, when I mentioned about how I'm starting to realise that I've been doing it wrongly all this while. I told him that the reason why I've become so busy, and bringing everyone else down with me, is because I've been trying too hard to make things right, to make things straight, to iron out any misconceptions or ambiguities. For too long I've been making my life and others' difficult for the sake of doing things right. So many unwanted problems and so many unresolved issues plague me everyday because I am the one who created them. In simpler sense, I asked for it. So many things have been done so wrongly, but I am starting to be convinced that these mistakes were deliberate. How would I know? Because the errors are so gross they seem to be jabbing a stick at you and mocking at your stupidity to uncover it, given that no one could have missed spotting such a mistake. As I realise why certain things are done in a particular manner, I also come to realise that such practices are the reason why work is most of the time averted.

I admit that sometimes acting blur does allow you to live longer, but at the expense of future generations of people. If everyone were more considerate, perhaps long long ago things would have been done correctly, and ever since. Right now I'm caught between "Don't do extra work lah. So unnecessary," and "Doing things the wrong way long enough doesn't mean you're doing it right," and I'm slightly more inclined to the latter. It's true. You might get away with it in here, but good luck pulling this stunt somewhere else out there in the corporate world.

Tiring this endeavour may seem, arduous this journey may appear to be, treacherous this path may assume, I gotta say it's endless. So what can you do when your good isn't good enough? Try harder, and hope for the best. How many times will it take to get it right? Might be too many, but hang in there x)