If there was someone to rant to, I'd probably drown the person in saliva and go on and on about how everything seems like a mess.
There will always be mistakes. Errors. I never knew how hard it was holding it together until I really go through the same shit. There were times I felt so exasperated that I just didn't know what to do. But nothing is ever too hard to salvage, because determination is what carries us through life's thick and thin. Just because we are lost sometimes doesn't mean that we'll be lost forever.
If I could turn back time I'd still make the same decision. From the day I started I knew this path was going to be difficult. I hope you see it too, because I am not a life buoy. Not anymore after my time. I have given (and will be giving) everything I can to the unit. It cost me more than what anyone would expect but I think it's worth it. It's worth every single effort and complaint.
Working in here has taught me that when things go wrong and it's not your fault, you have to find a way to resolve it first, before we start talking about who to hunt and seek vengeance from afterwards. I find it extremely ridiculous that I am blamed for being blunt and straightforward for the things I expect in work. It's as if they've never been said or done before - a completely fresh idea - and when that happens I feel like someone should speak up. I used to do that, but it shouldn't be my war to fight anymore.
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