Watch Your Life Play Out

I'm sure if we all had another shot at life, we probably would've chosen a different path, a different destiny, or a different past. It would seem pretty tempting to wipe the slate clean, especially when we think about all the mistakes we've made thus far. But what would your answer be, if say, given a choice to restart, erases everything that has happened in your life till today, regardless the good times or bad ones? If we could live another life, a life so perfect in our eyes, what, then, is stopping us? Despite of all the resentment we had or have for our lives, I'm not so sure that everyone of us want that flawless slab of rock. The current point, at any point in time, will always be a starting point if you let it be. Let yourself start something new today, and make a change that you always wanted to see in you. It will take time, but it will all be worth it.

As I write this paragraph, I coincidentally chance upon the magical 11:11, sitting here plugged in to slow acoustic music, and letting the day stop in this moment for awhile and absorb my senses. I had an effusion yesterday that I can't seem to get over. It'll probably take awhile to sink in, but meanwhile I will allow it to manifest itself without restraint. We often let ourselves be too comfortable with numbness that we sometimes fail to pause for our feelings. In this part of the world we live in, everything is fast. Morning smiles are a rarity, and so are compliments. The place is hot, but its people are cold.

I used to be extremely particular about the environment I am in when I'm writing, but have recently learned to forego that peeve arising from a cacophonous surrounding. I maintained that to capture the right emotions in my expressions, I needed a "conducive" environment, though what constituted to conducive I was not all that certain. But I was wrong. I didn't need serenity or tranquillity; at least not in the surroundings. I needed it in my heart, in the spirit, where everything would halt so precisely for me to explore everything around the newly created black-hole within. How can I be so at peace if I've never been there before? I thought I hadn't, but I know I have when I let music take over my senses. It unlocks so many secrets, and it unwinds so many feelings. Pensive, all of a sudden. Rationality takes a rest and emotions seem to take control.

May this bliss repeat forever.