Bring It On

I realise I haven't posted in awhile, so...

No, I don't think I was ever compelled to post, but I often get into a pensive mood for no particular reason, and I kinda enjoy these moments. I have bursts of enthusiasm to write something, but there are also times when I feel too lazy to even think about it. I guess we are all people like that. We dream of all the things we want to do, which may not necessarily always materialise. For that, we yearn more for the things that we know are privileges. There will come a time when we no longer want things, because we have everything we ever dreamed of – not because we worked too hard and enjoyed too little (I hope not), but because we tailored our expectations, and compromised our ambitions to settle for something more realistic, more achievable. I don’t think that’s wrong. The ambitious will dream of living in contentment, and the contented will fantasise about living a life of ambition. We all want to be people we aren’t, just because we aren’t.

I have been pretty busy lately, with work in the office and researching on some scholarship stuff. The time of the year has come again when I feel lousy about myself because of the things I don't see in my transcripts. But after a while, I convinced myself to believe that it is not all about accolades and results and whatnot. It is the heart; the desire to do well, to do more, so as to give more, and to live more. I just hope that the people seating behind that panel can see through all my imperfections to find a confident young man wanting to contribute. 

No more fears and insecurities - I'm in fight mode.