It's a BIG BIG world - we're but small small people

How big are we in another person's life? The fact that nobody asks this question doesn't mean no one wants to know the answer to it. Secretly we all want to know how much we mean to another person, be it friend or family.

I always thought I was a good friend. A listening ear, rather. For too long I've been on the listening end, trying to console others or make them feel better, make them hate themselves a little less than they already do, or make them feel like the world is standing behind them no matter what their decision was. I'm not complaining - because this is exactly what friends are for. They are there to support you when the whole world seems to have abandoned you. And trust me, being on this side for so long already, I can safely say that it is not easy. It is not easy to make someone feel better when you yourself are feeling far worse than what the other person with the complaint can imagine. You are a shoulder to cry on, but who would be your shoulder? It becomes a natural thing for others to assume that you are immune, but you are not. Always remember - it is not that they are weak, it is that you're stronger. Your strength is what grants you this special ability, to be the listening ear when others are down, to absorb all of another person's sorrow when you have your own to worry about, to make sure that someone else feels alright before you begin to access your own emotions.

But how much exactly are you worth to another person? Are you a once-in-a-while shoulder to cry on, or are you the regular shoulder that he / she always lean on and seek for no matter happy or sad? And no, it is not defined by the number of times the person stalks you on Facebook. Maybe it is. I don't know, really. Sometimes you just wanna know how often this particular person thinks of you, or desparately hopes that he / she talks to you first when you see him / her online on Fb chat. Secretly we all want to be wanted. Don't pretend that you don't want my attention too, because I know you do.

So to all my friends out there, no matter if we're close or not,

Don't worry, I will always be there for you.