Life gets boring once in a while.
There is a constant need for drama in our lives, because without which, it gets unbearably boring. But exactly how much of drama are we looking for?
Believe me, I have friends who have lived through the most colourful of lives and yet don't feel the least bit satisfied with their lives. Needless to say, there are also people who are, on the contrary, contented with the little spices in life, and hoping that it would stay as uneventful as possible, because anything out of the box would throw them off their feet and hit them with a catapult of kinder surprise.
Honestly, I'm not happy. I don't know why; I can't find a particular reason to attribute this sudden feeling of helplessness to. Is it some form of "down"? Or is it just another case of the nothingness inside creeping to devour the entire me? I know this might sound emo but no, I'm not. It's just this general distaste that has struck me. Stop asking me why - I don't know. I can't figure it out, so please stop asking. I appreciate the concern though. Why not you tell me? Outsider views tend to be more subjective, I guess.
Even in our 2 years here in service some of us are constantly looking for milestones in this span of time to make our countdown a lot more pleasant. Training, 1 year soldier, courses, postings, and etc. fill in the timeline which most of us plotted since the very start of enlistment. I never bothered. After all, what is going to come will come. What more should I expect? :)
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