I was on duty 2 nights ago till 10a.m. yesterday (23/01). Got some well wishes on Facebook; and as I mentioned, it's not as bad as what most people think it is. I was on 9GAG the entire time, and what a page-turner it was. Page after page after page omg it was endless. And then I had a conference call with dear pomelo and ping-ping-jie-jie. So sweet :)
Alright yesterday was kinda fruitful I guess (I'm still quite uncomfortable calling it "yesterday" because it literally just happened a few hours ago). I went to my Grandpa's house and... I fell asleep watching TV. -.- hey it's not my fault the show was boring and there was absolutely nothing to do. I know it's rude to just sleep like that, and I'm sorry, I tried my best.
Then I went to weeyang's house to get some dose of ass-kicking DW7. Something 'bout this game is so damn addictive. And I mean it. Damn hell addictive.
Dinner at aunt's house; some banluck, movie, chillaxing. Some nice luck there in gambling haha. Made a small tidy profit :D but it was unable to cover the catered buffet dinner. 170 bucks! I know, it's a lot for 5 people, but hey, it's the season! Learn to give a little without whining the entire way home. Sometimes I wonder why adults are so calculative. I hope I don't turn out this way. Even if it's expensive or it's not good enough for the money you pay, at least make it worth the money by enjoying it - food, company, and everything else that's available. I didn't go all the way down for dinner just to hear all these. Every single year this rinses and repeats. It gets so awry when family starts attacking each other with caustic comments. Well at least they didn't say it in front of each other. I'm not sure if that's a saving grace.
Well there you have it. First day of CNY. Pretty eventful or uneventful, I leave it to you. To me it's all the same every year. Nothing special. And that's the problem exactly - nothing special. I would want to look forward to more new things we could do each year but we haven't seem to find it yet. It's slowly turning into a one-size-fit-all-everyone-feels-happy kind of PH. Everyone's happy because we don't have to work. I feel that way actually. I'm happy for the holiday but not so much about the festival, celebration, and visiting. Frankly speaking, I'm starting to get tired of CNY (oh the blasphemy). Why am I feeling this way? Is this called the CNY blues?
It used to be a lot more fun when I was younger. I guess this is part of growing up - losing a little more magic every time we do it again. Or it might be partly due to estranged ties. Just maybe. As I was going through 9GAG yesterday, I came over this particular post:
And I find it true, to a large extent at least. When we were young nothing else other than fun seemed to matter. We always want to plae. Non-stop. So when we quarrel, when we say we hate each other, when we swear never to want to see each other or plae with one another ever again, we just did it out of a moment of anger and as soon as we realise how childish it was (the irony), we try to fix things up. We forgive each other only because we were both able to bury the hatchet and put down our pride for what was more important - fun. But as we grow up, we start to think that no one is indispensable. We want to win the fight. "Why should I apologise?" When we lose someone, we think "Never mind, I'll find someone like you". Truth is, you never will. And unless you stop being childish, you can kiss your friendship goodbye. I did that to you, and I realise my folly. I know it's too late now, but it will always serve as a reminder for me.
Happy CNY to all x)
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