Still Counting

I've checked today's date for more than 3 times in a day, and it suddenly struck me that the date no longer has significance to me now. For the past few weeks, it has consistently been an onerous cycle of "waiting for the weekend to arrive". Frankly, I have lost my sense of direction and purpose along the way at where I work now, but I don't blame myself, nor the people I work with, for the matter. I know very clearly the reason for it; I've been there before. You see, the nature of being a temp staff is such that you are always part of the achievement, but never part of the acknowledgement. You may be part of the assignment, but never part of the attainment. You may be part of the aspiration, but never part of the admiration. I can't say it's anybody's fault here. After all, the amount of responsibility expected from a perm and temp staff is starkly different to begin with, and overachieving will get you some commendation along the way but that isn't going to make you "more of the team" or closer to "our" goal.

Maybe it's that I always try to give my all that I feel slightly cheated at this. I know it's not their intention; I'm probably reading too much into it, but I find it difficult to define my own purpose, given this situation. In the end, it will be just a job to pass time, earn some income, hone my excel skills, give me the opportunity to do some non-fictional reading, live a healthier lifestyle, sharpen my communication skills, appreciate the weekend more... Wait a minute. That isn't so bad after all!

But I look on the bright side of it. I have indubitably learned a lot from the people I work with, and I believe that every small contribution I make was appreciated in some way or another. It honestly doesn't matter if I got any recognition for anything I've done, because the true spirit I embody would never demand credit. It was like that during my Army days, and being in a new environment doesn't change that mentality. It might not bring me far, but I'm contented.

Learning to count my blessings have been my greatest lesson yet. Oh, btw, that's part of the superhero training.