Some people may see me as more of a person on the "emo" side; which is perfectly fine with me. I don't deny that that I am emotional, think too much, feel more than the ordinary would, and probably partially depressing to be around. I can be crazily noisy but I'm mostly quiet and reserved. There are tons of things I've thought of saying to many people in my life but still don't have the courage to do so. And trust me, I'm not that depressed as to having such a bleak outlook to life that I slit myself and all that sort of shit. In fact, I'm not even near that.
While being perennially downcast can be seen as a psychological problem, being completely and obsessively happy should be considered one as well. Extremity in almost anything in life is potentially devastating. How can anyone be always either happy or sad? From a parallel perspective, this exhibits a devoid of emotion, so much so that there is no more capacity to feel otherwise. I am not trying to go all philosophical on you but in my most honest opinion, if you don't know everything about someone's life (which you never will, 'cos that would be creepy), don't judge them. I'm just saying.
But no, I'm not emo. I'm just a... feeler? (is there such a word?)
To prove it, I am OVER THE MOON that I got offered the position I interviewed for!! How's that?! Some happiness to throw in the faces of all you judgmental people. Ha.
Here's one advice - I know it's important to stay positive but there's a difference between positivity and forcing yourself to be happy. We are human beings, capable of feeling. We give, we take; we love, we hate. We can express whatever emotion we want, because our life would be an empty canvas without these various emotions to decorate it with. So go on, stop torturing yourself. You deserve better.
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