Mandatory New Year Post

I might have gone slightly too far past my dilatory habits this time round but... late is better than never? So here's the mandatory New Year post I owe myself.

Let me first explain myself. I was actually prepared to write this post on New Year's day. I really did. But it was unfortunate that my clumsiness with water resulted in a malfunctioning keyboard that did not allow me to. Nevertheless I admit that this is late so I am making up for it now.

It is now 20 days into the new year, and I can say that nothing much has happened in these 3 weeks that is deserving of a mention, except that I went to Bangkok for a short getaway in the first week. I don't know why, and I wouldn't call it a disappointment entirely, but I thought my trip was far from my expectations. It wasn't about the people or the place itself, so I guess the only reason would be company. Perhaps we have all changed, and I cannot hope to hold on to something so long ago or try to bring that back. It has opened my eyes though; not only about you but also about myself. It made me realise that, just maybe, we don't need certain people in our lives any more, but the letting go process is never easy. Cutting people loose was never my thing, but if I allow anchors to hold me down, then someday I will suffocate and drown, and I'd think back and say it's too late. I don't know how this will go, but for now, I don't want to think too much about it. Painful as it is, I think I'm done.

Looking back at 2013, there really weren't spectacular moments. Then again, nothing else in my 21 years of life had been particularly spectacular either. I'm a boring person, as many can tell. I found my passion and dream late last year, which I think I've already covered, so I'm pleased to say that wraps up 2013 for me. Unlike my first post, I am not going to do resolutions any more. I've learned that motivation for goals are never about how many items you have on your list, how achievable these items are, or the fact that you have a list (and thus keeping in check its progress). Those are goals. To achieve these goals we need motivation, and that's what is important. A goal will always remain a goal if no motivation exists to see it through. We find motivation from everyday events, people around us, and our passions. Trust me when I say they are hard to come by, but when you find them everything else will fall into place and you will lose yourself in self-discovery.