Stronger

I feel so defeated. For some unknown reason I feel zest-less, lazy, unaccomplished, unmotivated, lull and deflated lately. I've been sitting around do nothing, literally. I've thought about the oh-so-many things I would do, but never had the drive to do them. I promise myself so many things but never had the decency to complete them. I don't even know why I feel this way. Emptiness.

I wonder if this would be my life 10 years down the road - unaccomplished and lonely. Life was never a bed a roses, but I can't imagine a life with nothing at all. Nothing that I yearn, no dreams, no one to depend on, no one to talk to, nothing that interests me.

Adulthood is not something that can be taught. We learn this on our own. Sure, our parents might provide insights into life and values and stuff of that sort but how much of it are we gonna absorb? We are powerful individuals - we have our own thoughts, our own decisions, and definitely our own course of actions. I've never let anyone define the way I am, not because I'm rebellious, but because if I do I know I'm just turning into a caricature of an ideal person in someone's eyes. I don't wanna live for others. I wanna live for myself and make my own choices. And sadly, even that is too hard. Mistakes and misfortunes can change a person completely, destroying any sense of self-confidence one has. It's difficult. Either we deal with it, or let it bring us down. I'm gonna tell myself everyday that there is positivity all around. People do good, people do well, and there is nothing that can deject someone that much to make him/her wanna break.

Strength. A characteristic that's present in every superhero.